I feel the need to say....

History came in town today. A part of me got excited, while the rest of me was like "oh yea, a glimpse of what could of been." So, yea, I stayed at home. It would have been nice to reunite, party together, have din din, but in the end it would be a tease. No more teases without a guarantee.

Going to the Texans v Raiders game tomorrow, EXCITED. I love football, but I really love to go to games. The energy, the food, the entertainment....the food. And we have good seats so we're by the really good food spots.

stuck on this J Cole CD....goodness in  19 tracks :). I have listened to every track and I can say I only dislike one, Mr. Nice Watch. His tone is weird to me plus Jay Z tries to come in and save it....and it could have just been left alone.

PEANUT BUTTER FUDGE BITES FROM WALMART SAVES LIVES.

New obsessed customer of Revlon Color Burst Lip Gloss. I swear every time I wear Hot Pink something nice happens or I get compliments. Either way, I'm hooked. Plus the packaging is nice and its only like 7 dollars.

Finally finished the sequel to Midnight. Sister Souljah just loves to drag simple things out. But good read if you have the time and patience.

I am  now also obsessed with the author Teri Woods and her tales of the hood/hustler/dealing/distributor life.

Yea........dude I've been up and arms about, texted and tweeted today. Not sure if that's a good thing, or a by chance thing. Not sure what else to say about that.....except a real ass conversation needs to happen. I mean, grey areas are not the business whatsoever. Yea, you can say I hope for the best and by best I mean best for me lol

Man......today was a great day with my mom. She was in a great mood. I love it when its like we're partners in crime. We got back to the house and homegirl was pooped out. Hopefully tomorrow she has a great day as well. Love her to pieces!

Hola new readers :).

Duped

I got duped by someone I care about recently. Getting duped messes with your ego, your thoughts, hell even my appetite (had some freaky cravings).

Maybe I shouldn't have cared to the limit that I did, maybe I should have been more sharing with my true feelings...either way....

I learned something :)

I know now I need to be more present in situations. I need to not be afraid to be honest with my feelings. Sacrifice a little pride. Trust.

Sometimes I wish I could just read it in a manual, or have a little post it note left on my mirror. The tears, the confusion, the silence could have been avoided, well I would have preferred it.

Suffer thru the experiences to gain valuable lessons?? Completely worth it.

If I could tell him the truth without looking desperate and pathetic I would. I tried putting my words together and my friends were like....you know what makes you look like...tear smh...erase*erase*erase* lol

I'm not gonna waste my time and energy bashing him, blaming him. That does nothing but take time away from me making the necessary changes in myself. All I can say is I appreciated Bootsy's presence in my life and it will be missed. It is what it is.

No regrets, just more memories.

But go ahead to Walmart and buy some Peanut Butter Fundge No Bakes!!!!!!!!