Who knew I would cry watching a reailty show....

So, I just finished watching Sundays episode of Kim&Kourt Take NY. Kim reached out to John Edwards, a world renowned medium, to connect with her father. His message to her, her reaction really hit home for me. I realized I would like to have an opportunity to talk to my father again. So much is going on in my life that I think his advice would be of much comfort. But talking to a medium is a big step and a little scary. You never know, the person could be a fraud or very manipulative.

February is also coming soon and is always a hard time for me (the month my father died). You would think this many years later it would be easier but its not. Certain evens, feelings, memories trigger that pain that has never left my heart. At least my home girl is coming into town and my best friend is having a big bday bash for me to look forward to.

Getting older, my mom's illness, I realize a different thing I'm missing by not having him. I am blessed to have a great god father that provides great advice and support, but....its not the same.

On a good note I was told for the first time that I act like my father. That was so crazy to hear considering the fact he died when I was in the 5th grade and I'm 27 now. I felt so proud, I felt like something about me was right :)! Reassured me that he is with me, looking over me!

So I would like to end by saying, as much we judge these reality stars, they are people like the rest of us. Makeup, producers, money, whatever it doesn't matter. The reason we watch is because we can relate, we can live in someone else shoes for a moment or judge to make ourselves feel better. I'm grateful Kim shared that moment, needed that. You might not understand, but I do.....

Duped

I got duped by someone I care about recently. Getting duped messes with your ego, your thoughts, hell even my appetite (had some freaky cravings).

Maybe I shouldn't have cared to the limit that I did, maybe I should have been more sharing with my true feelings...either way....

I learned something :)

I know now I need to be more present in situations. I need to not be afraid to be honest with my feelings. Sacrifice a little pride. Trust.

Sometimes I wish I could just read it in a manual, or have a little post it note left on my mirror. The tears, the confusion, the silence could have been avoided, well I would have preferred it.

Suffer thru the experiences to gain valuable lessons?? Completely worth it.

If I could tell him the truth without looking desperate and pathetic I would. I tried putting my words together and my friends were like....you know what makes you look like...tear smh...erase*erase*erase* lol

I'm not gonna waste my time and energy bashing him, blaming him. That does nothing but take time away from me making the necessary changes in myself. All I can say is I appreciated Bootsy's presence in my life and it will be missed. It is what it is.

No regrets, just more memories.

But go ahead to Walmart and buy some Peanut Butter Fundge No Bakes!!!!!!!!

Mom...the good times

Sometimes I only tweet, update my status when times are rough with my mom. But that's because I know my friends, followers, strangers, whomever will send me some much needed love.

Well today I had a great early dinner with my mom. It was nice sharing a meal and I began to think of all the nice dinners, nice moments we do have. And how I need to focus on those to remember her by, not the negative effects of the disease.

It also made me appreciate her more for who she is. I wish before this all went down, we would have had more moments as these. I wish I had been more aggressive in improving our relationship. I wish we could have been closer, because I'm seeing traits of my mom I never got to see....

I don't' think I got to see them because my mom was very uptight and bougie. I never really got to hear her make jokes, and let loose because as she said it was either out of place, uncouth, inappropriate.

Now I get to see my mom is funny, insightful, spunky, appreciative, sensitive and at times freaky (quite creepy to hear her comments but funny as hell).

I used to think we didn't have anything in common, now I see we do.

Blessed :) Awesome Feelings Here :)

Some ingredients don't mix....

Not sure exactly why but I've never been apart of a one clique/group only. I have all types of friends. Some know each other, some don't. And it doesn't always work when they are joined.

Recently I hung out with 2 friends and man I don't think I want to hang out with them combined again. It was like they both gained a new attitude, like the air that they breathed was of higher quality.

Thank goodness I am able to adapt or adjust, otherwise my feelings would have been hurt or maybe theirs would have been, who knows....all I know is, I wasn't cool enough for the frequent whispers,eye glances, what have you.

I felt like I was at a sleepover where everyone who RSVP didn't show up except me and the 2 intended mean girls lol.

I realized then how some ingredients don't mix, and friendship wise I can't deal with their combined dish. I appreciate them as individuals, feel no ill feelings towards them, but as a combo I could say or do something that potentially end 2 friendships from their one. I REALLY HOPE Y'ALL GOT THAT LAST SENTENCE.

Interesting how that can happen.....

Friends....get some,real ones!

Last night I was reminded how blessed I've been in the friendship department...

A friend of friend was celebrating her birthday last night. My friends and I joined along. Thank God we did, because we were able to save her....literally

I understand when I was their age I wanted to have a great time, live life, but I never did at the expense of a friend (especially if it was their bday and they were drunk off their ass).

Glad we were able to step in and make sure she still had a great time while keeping her safe.

Think I'm overexaggerating?

At one point we went to them to tell them we had lost track of her and needed their help to locate her...their response "ummm, idk, who cares. we've been over here so {{shrugs}}" and they continued to drink.

ummm really?

And at the end of the night lied to us saying that they would look out for her, they checked on ehr...she was in the backseat with us...smh

Experiencing her "groupie ass friends" reminded me how blessed I am today, and how blessed I've been my whole life with friends. Loyalty, honesty, commitment, trust has been a common thread throughout all of my friends today or from the past.

At some point we all have to figure out our own definition of friendship and what kind of friends we want/need and what kind of friend we will be.

At some point we discover there are different levels/kinds of frienship and have to act accordingly to that individual.

I hope bday girl hears us

Back Again

That moment you remember you have a blog and haven't blogged since January because you visited another blog that just totally irked your mind....yea....

Seriously though, twitter took my need to blog. Instead of composing my thoughts into some clever sentencing, I can just tweet the thought right then and there.....added bonus is I get immediate feedback.

@veronicastorm (yep I plugged the name)

Updates

Mommy

My mother is still physically healthy but battling a never ending mind battle of Alzheimer's. Its getting more and more frustrating to accept the fact she's not going to get better. That one day it will be hard for her to call my name, associate me as her daughter....etc. But we've been spending a lot more time together which has helped me to appreciate her even more. I wish we could have done this years ago but it wasn't meant to be. Everyday I try to make sure we do an activity but its hard when she's not in the mood or fearful of her surroundings. But I do my best to keep her happy. I love her, but I wish I could do more. She did so much for me, not just being my mom, but my dad as well. All I can is my best in this situation and make the best decisions for her. I'm all she has, she's all I have :)

Dating. Men. The Struggle.

I've come to learn that being single is a growth experience but at the same time a challenging experience. One minute I think I have the answer the next minute I'm back to square one. I am single but my attention concentrates on one man in particular. That attention came naturally, unintentionally. Hard to decide how to navigate in that situation because of all the humps and hurdles. Keeping and open eye and mind as best as I can. But with the situation with my mom, I see the importance of companionship. Even if it doesn't go thru to the altar, people should take more chances in finding someone. Shouldn't wait till you get "successful" or wait for the "one." I'm willing to take chances, make mistakes, create memories. Hopefully someone is willing to do the same :)

Family (blood/non blood)

Trying. Pressuring. Judgemental. Disappointing. Conditional Love.

Me. Extra Info.

Been doing a lot of reading lately. Its my fav hobby and relaxes me. I don't have to worry about reality and like I always say, it's the cheapest vacation out there. I've also been trying to write, get my thoughts out of my head and hopefully compose into a book. I would love to write about my experience with my mom&Alzheimer's as well as realistic fictional stories that young woman can identify with.

Another tid bit, started to exercise. About to subscribe to Women's Health Magazine and join a gym. I need to turn my physical health around, get my metabolism back to moving. I don't want to be in my thirties looking at old pictures depressed or in the doctors office praying for good news.

Well I miss sharing my thoughts with friends and strangers. So blogging has to return to my daily routine, suffer with me :)

Tried being nice...

So I've learned the past couple of weeks that when I am nice, friendly to the opposite sex, it doesn't quite work in my favor.

Oh but when I'm rude, cocky, would you believe men come raining just making themselves to available, too aggressive, too needy....get it?

So what is a girl to do?

Can't really ask my elders, they didn't really have to deal with so much bitchass, flip floppy behavior?

Can't ask chicks younger because their idea of a good man is Soulja Boy....

Would ask my friends, but hell we all confused just trying to get thru a date without committing suicide...smh....crucial.... uh yea

FOR EXAMPLE

A man texted me to go out. Texted me late and had no set plans.

Nope Nope. Staying in my house.

I responded with "ugh no"

This set him off in a few comparisons of American women to "worldly women"

But he was born and raised in Houston.....side eye

His claim to judge was because he worked a couple of years overseas.

Of course I tried to be nice.

He wasn't so much.

NIGGA HAD NERVE TO NOT KNOW HOW TO SPELL!!

But did I expose his extreme inability to spell a word, no.

Let it go.

He "let it go".

Saw him yesterday.

He apologized and asked for another chance.

SIDE EYE

So......

I think I will just stick to myself, close my eyes and hope for the best lol

...how do you know?

When is it ok to settle? When is it ok to hold out for something better? When is it time to make it work, or run like a scared lamb?

Dating, sexing, texting, chatting, tweeting, meeting, loving, befriending, hugging, kissing any type of interaction with the opposite sex has become dreadful as physics was to me freshman year of college.

I know I don't want it to be easy, but damn, I didn't want it to be confusing and an annoyance.

I honestly thought by this age I would be in a serious relationship. I wasn't looking to marriage and babies. I don't want babies!! maybe marriage??

I have looked at what I want versus what I need. I have listed the things I can't live without. I no longer waste my time with those I am not interested in (like dates with randoms, waste of my time).

I thought maybe internet dating but folks said that was just desperate and I'm not at the stage yet. I don't think its desperate, but at least I can shop for options. I thought maybe speed dating, but no one would dare go with me. Live on the edge a little bit ladies lol.

I have a twitter account, @veronicastorm, where men like to inbox/dm me with their interests. That just makes me nervous. Because I have no profile to base you on, and its too easy to judge your random thoughts (tweets).

So....I think I will just rely on this "feeling" everyone has talked about. Or this "inkling" that will have me pay attention. Or maybe this "sparkle" will appear and some corny love music will play in the background. idk, I would just settle for Jodeci, a king special from Frenchys and a big hug.

Everyone, just breathe and enjoy your day.

Opinions As of Right Now

1. I'm not liking how the Houston social climate is changing.
2. I got dissed by a guy because I wasn't popular enough. So popular girls are awesome in his book.
3. My dog and I have better conversations than half of the men I meet. Did I mention my dog only barks and barely does that.
4. I am sick of Tiger Woods being raped in the media. He cheated on his wife. Who hasn't done that?
5. Man I own fake purses now. I feel better purchasing it. I feel like I am getting the man. It's funny how people treat me differently, like with status. Really funny when women inspect the bag, they determine it's real, then strike a conversation with me. Entertainment.
6. I don't want to meet another man. Seriously. I got my feelings hurt. Time for self love. And not in the sexual way for you dirty minds. I can't stand the getting to know you phase. Sick of telling my information, the uncomfortable dates, determing their ringtone..........
7. JAY LENO SUCKS!!!!!!!
8. I love Jimmy Fallon. His show is truly funny and creative. And the house band is The Roots. I actually laugh out loud not lol.
9. Why the fuck do I say lol all the time when I twit?
10. I refuse to participate in the All Star Activities. Hopefully I will be in New Orleans losing my mind, or here in Houston losing my mind...all I know is I need to lose my mind. All the folks will be out in Dallas.
11. If the Pants on the Ground man can get a record deal and a performance on the Grammys what the hell am I doing wrong?

GOODNIGHT

long time, no blog

I haven't blogged in a minute, because sometimes it's too hard to let stuff out. Actually read it and see it. Easier to think about it, discuss with some friends, but never personally staring at it.

It hasn't been easy with my mom. Some days are good and some days are bad. Other days it's bad and good all in the same day. I have to admit I think this is making me stronger and a bit weaker in some areas. I have lost focus on goals and what I really want in life.

On a good note, I am recognizing the signs to let people stay and go in my life. I have learned the importance of self-reflection. I am learning patience and understanding. I realized my passion for reading and writing.

I plan to start blogging again for myself. I miss writing and talking to people and hearing folks opinions.

I must say I appreciate the people who are in my life and want to be in my life. That exculdes my family, blood family. I have totally avoided them, and pushed them out. They are not there for my mother, of which I can't respect nor understand (funny I say I've learned understanding).

But what a blessing it has been for the definition of family to change for me. My friends, my neighbors, my mother's friends, parents of the children I take care of, even my drunk god father has been a huge help!

So this week I am making changes to protect and enhance my life. I'm taking a step into taking chances and facing challenges head on! WHEW HOO!

Shoutouts to 2010!

Can I say...

it is hard to take the steps to take someone seriously and have them take you seriously. I am currently feeling that urge to have this person all to myself. I haven't felt this in a minute. It's nice to feel comfortable about someone, and talk about them, trust them, learn about them, appreciate the little things. This phase I'm in is quite enjoyable. It just sucks when I don't get my way, or get my feelings hurt. It's straight personal. Even a yell out to my friends can't cure it. Ooooweee. So, we've been having more heart to hearts, more quality quality boo time. loves, it hates it, he has given me a nickname. It's Amber Lynn. I hate it but secretly smile when he says it.....

I lost a friend due to some straight fuckery and foolatry and drunkness and trickery. A friend of mine went off on me because I don't share the feelings he has for me, for him. Get off! Claimed I diss him. Dissing him would be using him, leading him on, not being honest. I have always told him how I feel, that I jsut wanted to be friends. During his drunken rant he said he has been trying to get at me for a year and a half. Anyone that knows me knows I make up my mind in like 5 minutes. Doesn't take a year to convince and I don't like being convinced. It hurts that I have lost a friend, that I got disrespected and no apology. So was he ever a friend? Was he just waiting for his opportunity all along? Damn dudes!!! ANd dudes say females are emotional????

I am still shocked how my family isn't doing anything for my mom. It's like she doesn't exist or they think she's this angel floating around in pure happy life and goodness.

I am addicted to twitter. Follw me @veronicastorm. I seriously wild out and sometimes have to PG 13 my ass

I love watching tv on my phone. No commercials. Especially no scary movie previews that give me nightmares.

Somehow I have got to stop spending my money. Like all of it.

Check This...

Today Noelle is coming over. We are going to Kona and then on to Pravada. I plan for laughs and interesting comments. So you should follow me twitter.com/veronicastorm.

I drove to my Grandma's and then back today. The drive pooped me out. But still can't sleep. I hope I don't snap on the kids. I'm going to put on a movie for myself to keep some positivity around me.

My mom actually seemed like she missed me. I told her I loved her today. Felt good. Hasn't gone down like that in a minute. I have to take and appreciate the moments I get. I love her so much. While she was gone it really gave me abreak, I was able to clear my head and relax. But it also made me really think about what she has to go thru. Knowing she's here and there. Damn.

I am confused about my boo. Where is this going to go? I've got to strike up the conversation immediately. Cuz I like him and need to make a change before all you hear from me is "Why Why WHy??" LOL...Something about the way he looks at me, let me stop!!!

I HATE PEOPLE THAT WHEN YOU CALL THEM, THEY DON'T ANSWER, THEN SEND YOU A TEXT SAYING, DID YOU CALL........

Realized my family doesn't think of me often. Tear. And who cares, I have other family, really family that does.

Still wearing the fake nails, what am I really doing??

DANCE CLASS TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sad, the days are disappearing and Antoinette will be back in dallas... : ( : ( : ( : (

EVERYONE HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND, CUZ I AM

BLASTING

....how does a certain someone (Ken Ken) hack into my stuff. I've changed the passwords, not like he's seen me to maybe bribe them out of me, and I haven't logged on nothing around him. Freaky, wacky!!

....all of the people my mom has helped over the years. They are like ghost. You would think they might want to put in some extra effort, like at least 5 minutes of their time and nothing. Only a select few are still around, but then they were expected. Solid gold type of people. It's crazy to see how disgusting some oldies are. I mean money she has lent, they could pay it back. All them times she ran errands, they could drop by and say helo. Hard situations really show the truth.

....birth control. I just don't think you work. Too many damn people in Houston are pregnant. I don't want to catch the bug. I have never taken you and haven't gotten pregnant. To the folks out there who are shaking their head in disbelief, I don't care lol. So I refuse to drink water, well did that before because I am addicted to Coke.

....Coke, I am addicted to you. I have to drink you everyday. Damn shame. And now I want to add a friend to you.

....Specs & Colony Lake Liquors. I wish you two weren't so close to my house. I wish you didn't advertise all the different specials you have, and all the new things I should try.

....Popeyes. For failing your food inspection test. Failed in the 60s. And the only grades available are A, B and C. Now I have to miss out on the Tuesday special, and the heavily seasoned fries because you don't want to store things at the correct temperature.

...Blacks from Black parts of town who blast me any chance they get. I'm sorry my momma decided to move into the suburbs or choose to raise me in a small town in Michigan. No I don't have the ghetto pass card. No I don't give the middle finger like you. No I don't have an accent. Get over it. It is 2009. Yes I talk different. It's annoying everytime I meet someone who thinks they are "blacker" than me, they have to comment, make a joke, or try to intimidate me. Try again, I am an ignorant idividual.

....Girls who wear"lace fronts" in Houston. I don't care I have talked about this before and will continue to try to convince folks it's not working. It's not a lace front if there is glue all up and down your hairline. It is not a lace front if I can see you tried to attempt a lace front. It's not a lace front if you buying 12.99 bags of Yaki at the beauty supply. It's not a lace front if all you can do is wear it in the weird ponytail.

hell yea

I will say it again

follow me twitter.com/veronicastorm

People Take The Joy Out Of............

FACEBOOK/TWITTER
~status stalker: stalk you to the point that when you see them face to face they spit off every status you have had.
~People who have low reading comprehension skills and get offended or don't understand your words. Then have the nerve to be rude and judgemental with their responses/reactions
~Take it too serious: lose their jobs, lose friends, lose relationships

DATING
~The other person disappointing you for no reason, not in a relationship, so no point in lies, embellishments, criticisms....
~Undisclosed expectations and intentions
~Folks who catch feelings to quick
~Crazy exs who throw themselves into the equation

NEW FASHION TRENDS
~People who wear the trend out, like put it in every outfit...ex the latex pants shouldn't be worn to the club, to your job, to the grocery store and too church
~People who wear trends that don't fit their body...ex people with no booty or too much booty wearing the latex pants. Either too much or too little to look at

HUMANS THAT HAVE PHONES THAT ARE NOT THE "AMAZING i PHONE"
~Always telling you what your phone doesn't have in comparison to yours
~Boderline get angry when you tell them of a feature their "Amazing i Phone" doesn't have that you do, then go on a hunt for the application

so.......what do people take the joy out of for you??

Confusion!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1. I don't get people who go on dates to the club. The whole time worrying about who is staring at their significant other, doing to much to let folks know they are together, boo up and take needed space at the bar....I don't get it. Have fun, let loose.

2. People who ask you to do favors for them, give them advice, give them ideas and suggestions....to all of a suden treat you a hot shitty mess.

3. "You can be my sweet dream, or a beautiful nightmare" the words in Beyonce's new song Sweet Dreams...I guess I'm slow because none of my nightmares have been beautiful or enjoyable.

4. How I still have a crush on this dude from high school...I blame his smile and humor

5. THE HEAT IN HOUSTON...WHY IS IT SO HOT???? WE ARE NOT THAT CLOSE TO THE EQUATOR.

6. Boys II Men is now 3. I mean someone told me the one with the deep voice has back problems, but can he lay down and do his part? It's harsh, and wrong for me to say, but I always loved his pimp walk and random outburts of poetry.

7. How come my mobile blogging is still not working.

8. Why do guys think its cool to say, "where yo man at?i know he'll be pissed if he sees me talking to you?i know you not alone? your man let you out the house? you to fine/sexy/cute/funny/nice to be single,whats wrong??.........confuses me!!!!!

9. Who got all the money when people had to go buy these digital conversion boxes?? or whatever the new cable is called...

10. THE POINT OF TWITTER IF EVERYONE JUST CONNECTS IT TO THEIR FACEBOOK

11. How facebook hasn't added a music option...

12. How come the use of the word "bitchassness" faded so quickly...

13. What does my dog dream about??? He sometimes make noises, barks, moves around, and a couple of times has woken himself up.

14. Alzheimers

15. Why is it so hard to direct my thoughts to formulate this book I want to write.

loves all, live well

ITs Been A Minute

I haven't been able to share my thoughts, because they just don't make sense to me. A big change has happened in my life. My mom was diagnosed with alzheimers. FInally things make sense, but then opens a door of unanswered questions.

I lost my dad when I was in the 5th grade, and now it's like I'm losing her, just slowly. I can't do anything right, I can't make it better, I just don't know what to do.

I can't imagine what goes thru her mind on a daily basis. How heavy her heart must feel.

I love my mom. I just can't lose her. And I am and I am losing myself slowly.

Today I am writing these words cuz I don't know who to call and tell them to. I don't have the courage to cry to someone, except to the people at the alzheimers support group.

Preventing the word flow....

I went to a Sonic in Katy. They refused to inform me they no longer had Hamburger buns! So I got toasted bread with my Chicken Strip Sandwich. Tear my life. It wasn't the same. And they were stingy on the mayo. I didn't call corporate, but my feelings and taste buds were truly hurt.

My mom won't get help. She is truly going thru something, something is taking over, and she is almost content with it. It's frustrating as hell to live at home. So I have truly been exploring my options, and planning for some moves. I know I need to be there for her. I am an only child. But damn, you can't help someone who doesn't want help. It's like she has gotten used to taken everything out on me, making me her punch bag, battling the migraines, forgetting stuff......and on and on......I am truly tired. Shit I am having headaches. Like taking medicine on the regular. It's crazy, sad, and exhausting.

I love Jamie Foxx's new CD!!!!!!!!!!!!It's the bomb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to be his digital girl!!!!

I want people to acknowledge the way they enter my life.

I have truly been trying to put my words onto paper. I really want to somehow put my randomness into a book. I think I can contribute something different in the writing world. But it's a hard process. Like just deciding the format. Will I follow the blogs or will I attempt to make a flowing story. I am going to email some authors and see if anyone is willing to release some advice.

ohhh my goodness, I am seeing a belly. Best believe I will be running!

I feel sorry for all of the regular people in D.C. for the next couple of weeks.

So the pastor's wife attempted to play hookup with myself and her son. Awkard!!!

I decided I want to marry a man that has already been married. He already has had his children. He just wants to succeed at his job/business. He wants to travel, discover the world. He wants to live out and discover his passions. He wants to teach me things, he wants to investigate life with me. I want him to be older and taller.

Will there ever be a change in Gaza? Like seriously....when will it get old that so many people are dying!!!

I CANNOT AND WILL NOT TAKE THIS BIGGIE MOVIE SERIOUS......and how the hell is Lil Kim going to get offended because she's portrayed as Biggie's jump off........know your role!

I am nervous as hell. Nervous about the upcoming CD Lil Wayne and T Payne are supposed to make. Oh my goodness I am avoiding radios, clubs, parties, bars.....AAAAAWWWWW....don't they care about our eardrums

Loves all, miss all

reality

It's been hard to blog lately.

It's been hard to publish what has already been typed.

To sum it up, it is hell living with my mother. Her mood swings, her paranoia, her memory loss.....it's depressing. I never thought I would see her like this. I honestly can't handle it. I have reached to family and friends but the adults tell me to hold on, support her, she's yo momma, help her, we are talking about, la di da di da. Not helping!

ex. I can't even use nail polish remover because she thinks I am sniffing it. The smell is too strong for her. Therefore there is no way I could be using it with nail polish, I must be getting high. Tear my life. If anything she is making me miss...well I am not going to go there.

Found a job. Got excited. Then wasn't given all the proper information. Missed the training school. Tear my lfie. So no job. But started babysitting so that's money, it's cash, it's nice, the kids are good, back to waking up early in the morning. YEA!

Let's talk about crazy friends. I thought the older I got some petty shit would disappear. Boy was I wrong. But I am learning and losing and winning along the way. It's getting easier letting people go. I no longer have the will or need to try to keeep them in my life or whatever. It's like bye bye. I'm tired of getting my feelings hurt.

Reading has become my passion once again and taking all of my money. But it eases my mind, make me happier.

I have been thinking about my dad lately. Random in my eyes.

I am truly looking for understanding, for direction. I want to make my own solid foundation. Sometimes I feel a part of me is missing, and I don't know what part or why. I am interested in moving. THinking about NEw Orleans because of all the new business coming their way. Like the Trump TOwers. Hmm.......

My Issues With Politics

1. Why does Obama's acceptance speech have to be such a profound usage of foolery? I mean the lights the stage, the music, the location, etc.? Watching the speech now, and it is a great speech. He doesn't need all that drama. No other president has needed such a show to get elected or to be so desperate for the votes of independent voter.



2. Why won't John Mccain tell the world who his running mate is? Okay....it is some random lady from Alaska, go snow! Bet Obama's team is nervous about all those potential females votes to lose. Ooopsies, bet Clinton isn't look so harmful now at all



3. Isn't it crazy how great Hillary Clinton's speech was? I think the best one of her life. I really hope she is able to make some fierce changes in Washington with that new degree of passion....especially for health care.

4. Who else thinks Republicans are hillarious? From their crazy affiars, hillarious statements, outrageous backgrounds, I can't wait for the Republican National Convention!

5. How come on TV1 their coverage had to be called the "DNC Afterparty?" Guess it is too hard to spell out Democratic National Convention, or too hard to give the show a proper name like panel or something. It's not a party, it is politics! Serious business.

6. Damn it's a bitch I didn't keep my major political science......

7. And another comment about TV1, why are there comedians on the panel? Well let me say less informed comedians contributing to the conversation of the importance of this election. Sheryl's first comment related to Hillary's suit, not the content of her speech and the potential impact it might have. Tear on Sheryl's life!

8. So....if Mccain's hair is already white, what color will it change when he gets really stressed?

Politics, what a ham?

NO PENIS LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ME: Are you gay?

7 Foot Nigga Driving a Caprice: Yes

ME: Are you sure?

7 Foot Nigga Driving A Caprice: Yes

ME: All the time?

7 Foot Nigga Driving A Caprice: Yes

UNBELIEVABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, I just left this gay club in Houston, Texas. Umm.............gay black men everywhere. I mean I support the cause, the movement, the decision, but damn, you start looking and realize none of these men are for me....these hundreds of men.....gorgeous men......sexy men.....tall men......men of all different skin tones....niggas with jobs......niggas with money

Then I come back to Ms. Runway Diva's and Mr. Hornyball of the Century's hotel room. I mean they are horny as hell and violating me. I am being violated as I type. OMG!! These men are playing with my emotions. I mean after they violate me, they are still gay, still happy, and I am horny and depressed. Tear my life. Mr. Hornyball of the Century just bit my....titty.....and Ms. Runway Diva is coming at me from under the table. I am being violated. I am mad at my body for liking it.

Mr. Sexy Pout is sitting here next to me laughing. And tried to protect me from the wayward feelings of Ms. Runway Diva and Mr. Hornyball of the Century. I love him, he is my protector.

In conclusion, Mr. Sexy Pout understands as a black woman I look around and say.....damn! But then I am like......damn and tear my life.

The point of this blog was to vent. I love hanging out with my friends. They make me happy and give me the friendship that I lost in others. But hanging out with them makes me wonder are there even thousands of available straight all the time black men.

If you are offended or don't understand what I'm trying to say that's awesome. Leave a comment. But hell I have had a few drinks and don't understand my damn self

ok.....I wasn't drunk at all. Just drunk in music.