Things you should try if you haven't....

listen to "She Will" by Lil Wayne, Drake and Rick Ross while looking in the mirror getting dressed/undressed. Something about that beat makes feel all devilish and sexy....

CenterCourt Pizza. Only locations are in Pearland and Missouri City but...its so good!

Fist Pumping all night, equivalent to doing a 6 sets of arm curls in the gym.

Saying "Gyming" instead of "working out." Folks look at me crazy but I'm over saying working out.

Having a dance session in the middle of the street downtown, but sober.

quality reality tv: The A List: New York season 1&2. Just go to logotv.com

hawaiian sandwich bread, makes my plain turkey sandwiches so much more enjoyable

grocery shopping night. they restock the shelves, bakes goods get slashed to like a dollar and its quiet.

Twitter.

Getting rid of negative people. Breath of fresh air and a weight lifted.

Back Again

That moment you remember you have a blog and haven't blogged since January because you visited another blog that just totally irked your mind....yea....

Seriously though, twitter took my need to blog. Instead of composing my thoughts into some clever sentencing, I can just tweet the thought right then and there.....added bonus is I get immediate feedback.

@veronicastorm (yep I plugged the name)

Updates

Mommy

My mother is still physically healthy but battling a never ending mind battle of Alzheimer's. Its getting more and more frustrating to accept the fact she's not going to get better. That one day it will be hard for her to call my name, associate me as her daughter....etc. But we've been spending a lot more time together which has helped me to appreciate her even more. I wish we could have done this years ago but it wasn't meant to be. Everyday I try to make sure we do an activity but its hard when she's not in the mood or fearful of her surroundings. But I do my best to keep her happy. I love her, but I wish I could do more. She did so much for me, not just being my mom, but my dad as well. All I can is my best in this situation and make the best decisions for her. I'm all she has, she's all I have :)

Dating. Men. The Struggle.

I've come to learn that being single is a growth experience but at the same time a challenging experience. One minute I think I have the answer the next minute I'm back to square one. I am single but my attention concentrates on one man in particular. That attention came naturally, unintentionally. Hard to decide how to navigate in that situation because of all the humps and hurdles. Keeping and open eye and mind as best as I can. But with the situation with my mom, I see the importance of companionship. Even if it doesn't go thru to the altar, people should take more chances in finding someone. Shouldn't wait till you get "successful" or wait for the "one." I'm willing to take chances, make mistakes, create memories. Hopefully someone is willing to do the same :)

Family (blood/non blood)

Trying. Pressuring. Judgemental. Disappointing. Conditional Love.

Me. Extra Info.

Been doing a lot of reading lately. Its my fav hobby and relaxes me. I don't have to worry about reality and like I always say, it's the cheapest vacation out there. I've also been trying to write, get my thoughts out of my head and hopefully compose into a book. I would love to write about my experience with my mom&Alzheimer's as well as realistic fictional stories that young woman can identify with.

Another tid bit, started to exercise. About to subscribe to Women's Health Magazine and join a gym. I need to turn my physical health around, get my metabolism back to moving. I don't want to be in my thirties looking at old pictures depressed or in the doctors office praying for good news.

Well I miss sharing my thoughts with friends and strangers. So blogging has to return to my daily routine, suffer with me :)

Current Events have been ridiculous....

I don't remember a time where I was was confused watching the news or reading articles on line. From politics to celebrity gossip nothing makes sense.

Tiny gives a hand job to TI and gets caught by guards??

I don't know whether to laugh or feel pity for this couple. Not only can y'all not stay out of jail, y'all can't even act right while TI is in. I also feel like TI could afford to pay someone to do that for him. Can't be that desperate. I would understand full on sex or oral...over a middle school movie theatre date 2nd base act.

http://http://theybf.com/2011/01/06/i-got-beat-ti-and-tiny-caught-in-the-act-during-visiting-hours

Obama's team keeps changing???

Once again, seems like every few months, somebody moves around in Obama's camp. I don't know whether to be glad he is able to make decisions without worrying about fallout or begin to worry what's really going on behind closed doors.

http://http://www.cnn.com/2011/POLITICS/01/06/obama.daley/index.html?hpt=T1

Woman writes a suicide note,gets mocked,then committs act????

So a woman decided to post a suicide note on facebook (yep big mistake). I bet she thought it could be one last effort to see if someone would care, last cry for help. Boy was she wrong, over a hundred rude, mocking comments. Next day, the police found her dead body. Now her wall is full of love....side eye!!

http://http://gawker.com/5726958/facebook-suicide-note-gets-mocked-turns-out-to-be-real

Snooki, the new face of an empire???

I think its amazing that this little nugget of a human being is taking control of her 15 minutes of fame. Really she has passed her 15 minutes because she is a household name. Read the article. I'm still schocked homegirl "wrote a book"

http://http://gawker.com/5726271/snooki-is-building-an-empire?skyline=true&s=i

F Bar?????

New club in Houston is opening with this name. Blatant much...

http://http://www.29-95.com/bars-clubs/story/f-bar

These recent stories have made me do all kind of facial expressions lately. Hopefully you can make more sense of them than I could....

My Issues With Politics

1. Why does Obama's acceptance speech have to be such a profound usage of foolery? I mean the lights the stage, the music, the location, etc.? Watching the speech now, and it is a great speech. He doesn't need all that drama. No other president has needed such a show to get elected or to be so desperate for the votes of independent voter.



2. Why won't John Mccain tell the world who his running mate is? Okay....it is some random lady from Alaska, go snow! Bet Obama's team is nervous about all those potential females votes to lose. Ooopsies, bet Clinton isn't look so harmful now at all



3. Isn't it crazy how great Hillary Clinton's speech was? I think the best one of her life. I really hope she is able to make some fierce changes in Washington with that new degree of passion....especially for health care.

4. Who else thinks Republicans are hillarious? From their crazy affiars, hillarious statements, outrageous backgrounds, I can't wait for the Republican National Convention!

5. How come on TV1 their coverage had to be called the "DNC Afterparty?" Guess it is too hard to spell out Democratic National Convention, or too hard to give the show a proper name like panel or something. It's not a party, it is politics! Serious business.

6. Damn it's a bitch I didn't keep my major political science......

7. And another comment about TV1, why are there comedians on the panel? Well let me say less informed comedians contributing to the conversation of the importance of this election. Sheryl's first comment related to Hillary's suit, not the content of her speech and the potential impact it might have. Tear on Sheryl's life!

8. So....if Mccain's hair is already white, what color will it change when he gets really stressed?

Politics, what a ham?

NO PENIS LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ME: Are you gay?

7 Foot Nigga Driving a Caprice: Yes

ME: Are you sure?

7 Foot Nigga Driving A Caprice: Yes

ME: All the time?

7 Foot Nigga Driving A Caprice: Yes

UNBELIEVABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, I just left this gay club in Houston, Texas. Umm.............gay black men everywhere. I mean I support the cause, the movement, the decision, but damn, you start looking and realize none of these men are for me....these hundreds of men.....gorgeous men......sexy men.....tall men......men of all different skin tones....niggas with jobs......niggas with money

Then I come back to Ms. Runway Diva's and Mr. Hornyball of the Century's hotel room. I mean they are horny as hell and violating me. I am being violated as I type. OMG!! These men are playing with my emotions. I mean after they violate me, they are still gay, still happy, and I am horny and depressed. Tear my life. Mr. Hornyball of the Century just bit my....titty.....and Ms. Runway Diva is coming at me from under the table. I am being violated. I am mad at my body for liking it.

Mr. Sexy Pout is sitting here next to me laughing. And tried to protect me from the wayward feelings of Ms. Runway Diva and Mr. Hornyball of the Century. I love him, he is my protector.

In conclusion, Mr. Sexy Pout understands as a black woman I look around and say.....damn! But then I am like......damn and tear my life.

The point of this blog was to vent. I love hanging out with my friends. They make me happy and give me the friendship that I lost in others. But hanging out with them makes me wonder are there even thousands of available straight all the time black men.

If you are offended or don't understand what I'm trying to say that's awesome. Leave a comment. But hell I have had a few drinks and don't understand my damn self

ok.....I wasn't drunk at all. Just drunk in music.

The Big Hurt

The Big Hurt: this means when I notice the reaction of a Black Man to either a gay black man or a white woman. Their neck twists like they have never seen something so magical in their life. Willing to push a Black Woman out the way to get a chance with the gay black man or the white woman. Never really noticed it or cared until I went out with The Great White Hype (white chick) and Ms. Runway Diva (fab gay).

The Great White Hype

Description: cute girl, lean, curly long brown hair with highlights, wears alot of makeup, Dallas accent, tall, tans a bit

~It was cool when we were getting in the club for free. It was cool when dudes would get her a drink, then get the crew drinks too. But when black men come up to you continuosly to get introduced to your "white homegirl/white chick" it begins to get annoying. And it's offensive towards The Great White Hype too. Who wants a man to talk to you because you just so happen to be white.

~I don't know how to put it in words, but it hurt my feelings a bit. And my other homegirl who is black too. I mean you truly feel the difference in the approach, you see the difference in the looks, the difference in the touch. It hurts you know the attention she is getting, the amount and the degree, we will not recieve,well not with her included in the crew. And what it would be like to be put on a high horse just because of your skin color. I can't wait for the day when chocolate brown (my skin color) becomes the shiznit.

Ms. Runway Diva

Description: lean, chocolate brown, fade cut, pretty skin, dressed to the nines all the time, and flamming his faggotry ways for everyone to know (got the word faggotry from him, ?lol? )

~Some dude tried to holla at him, smiling and such. Then when I came to the bar, the same dude tried to holla at me. Ummm..........unacceptable.

~Knowing the fact that most of his boos are married, have girlfriends, family men, professional men, all types of men....living a different lifestyle on the side. Makes me nervous, makes me suspect of all men.

~Seeing men I know to be straight, flirt with him, or give him a head nod. Let me talk about this head nod. I mean it happens so quick you can't check it. Happens so often, it will shock you. Ms. Runway Diva had to school me, and after the lesson I wanted to cry. If I hadn't of been with Ms. Runway Diva, this world would have been a mystery. Hurts my feelings that so many men, well at least in the Dallas area are decievers.

So, The Big Hurt is a new experience going on, well has been going on for the past couple of weeks. Some people reading this blog won't agree and can't understand what I'm saying. But as a young black woman, this stuff hurts a bit. Especially when I notice women of other races not really going thru what I go thru, well at least women I know and talk to. Just had to get it off my chest.......

The ill Dirty Talk....

So we all have heard of or experienced the act of "Phone Sex." Well, for the first time in my life, I experienced "Dirty Text Messages/Text Message Sex/Clicking Freaky." What would be a cool name for that?

It was weird. Around 3am I recieved some messages from Jermaine the Lame. The basic, "I miss you" "Where are you?".....then it went to a place that I couldn't quite follow.......

.......at first......

It was almost better than phone sex, I mean the anticipation of the next message coming was crazy.

His creative placement of words.

His speedy response.

His ability to text fast.

Then I thought, this is some bad joke, I can't respond.

I must say, those Romance novels I tend to read came in handy.

It was......Something fun...Something random....Something different......

Don't think I could ever initiate an actual text convo......but ooo wee lol

Not really a turn-on but a great game to play. Especially if you around people and you read the text message and all of a sudden you start blushing and giggling....mischief!

Hats off to Jermaine the Lame for opening up a new door, even thou it's not that new. Wonder what's next........

Not ready yet...

basically just signed on to check out my friend's blogs and comment. I prefer to blog on myspace.