I haven't blogged in a minute, because sometimes it's too hard to let stuff out. Actually read it and see it. Easier to think about it, discuss with some friends, but never personally staring at it.
It hasn't been easy with my mom. Some days are good and some days are bad. Other days it's bad and good all in the same day. I have to admit I think this is making me stronger and a bit weaker in some areas. I have lost focus on goals and what I really want in life.
On a good note, I am recognizing the signs to let people stay and go in my life. I have learned the importance of self-reflection. I am learning patience and understanding. I realized my passion for reading and writing.
I plan to start blogging again for myself. I miss writing and talking to people and hearing folks opinions.
I must say I appreciate the people who are in my life and want to be in my life. That exculdes my family, blood family. I have totally avoided them, and pushed them out. They are not there for my mother, of which I can't respect nor understand (funny I say I've learned understanding).
But what a blessing it has been for the definition of family to change for me. My friends, my neighbors, my mother's friends, parents of the children I take care of, even my drunk god father has been a huge help!
So this week I am making changes to protect and enhance my life. I'm taking a step into taking chances and facing challenges head on! WHEW HOO!
Shoutouts to 2010!
2 comments:
I spent most of last year finding out about myself and I still don't know everything about myself...but I've learned to let a lot go and not worry about a lot of stuff/people. It's been really nice. Kudos on the start of your journey.
Hope you're doing well. -d
Can I say that I'm amazed that you've blogged thrice this year. *claps*
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