2009

Someone reminded me of how I was freshman year of college. I was excited about life, the levels in my voice would change frequently, I was happy about being happy, I wanted to discover new things, and watch, and just be me!

That same person talked on the phone with me today and just was so surprised about my tone. How different I sounded. I didn't think it was that bad. I had to explain 2008 was a rough year. Rough of lessons and experiences.

So in 2009 I hope to remember 2002. I hope to discover reasoning in 2009 to feel like I did in 2002. I want that genuine smile back. No reason why I can't :)

Preventing the word flow....

I went to a Sonic in Katy. They refused to inform me they no longer had Hamburger buns! So I got toasted bread with my Chicken Strip Sandwich. Tear my life. It wasn't the same. And they were stingy on the mayo. I didn't call corporate, but my feelings and taste buds were truly hurt.

My mom won't get help. She is truly going thru something, something is taking over, and she is almost content with it. It's frustrating as hell to live at home. So I have truly been exploring my options, and planning for some moves. I know I need to be there for her. I am an only child. But damn, you can't help someone who doesn't want help. It's like she has gotten used to taken everything out on me, making me her punch bag, battling the migraines, forgetting stuff......and on and on......I am truly tired. Shit I am having headaches. Like taking medicine on the regular. It's crazy, sad, and exhausting.

I love Jamie Foxx's new CD!!!!!!!!!!!!It's the bomb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to be his digital girl!!!!

I want people to acknowledge the way they enter my life.

I have truly been trying to put my words onto paper. I really want to somehow put my randomness into a book. I think I can contribute something different in the writing world. But it's a hard process. Like just deciding the format. Will I follow the blogs or will I attempt to make a flowing story. I am going to email some authors and see if anyone is willing to release some advice.

ohhh my goodness, I am seeing a belly. Best believe I will be running!

I feel sorry for all of the regular people in D.C. for the next couple of weeks.

So the pastor's wife attempted to play hookup with myself and her son. Awkard!!!

I decided I want to marry a man that has already been married. He already has had his children. He just wants to succeed at his job/business. He wants to travel, discover the world. He wants to live out and discover his passions. He wants to teach me things, he wants to investigate life with me. I want him to be older and taller.

Will there ever be a change in Gaza? Like seriously....when will it get old that so many people are dying!!!

I CANNOT AND WILL NOT TAKE THIS BIGGIE MOVIE SERIOUS......and how the hell is Lil Kim going to get offended because she's portrayed as Biggie's jump off........know your role!

I am nervous as hell. Nervous about the upcoming CD Lil Wayne and T Payne are supposed to make. Oh my goodness I am avoiding radios, clubs, parties, bars.....AAAAAWWWWW....don't they care about our eardrums

Loves all, miss all