MY COUSIN IS AWESOME!!FOOTBALL AWESOME

1. North Shore
2. Pearland
3. FB Hightower
4. Katy Cinco Ranch
5. Katy
6. Aldine Eisenhower
7. Deer Park
8. Beaumont West Brook
9. Houston Madison
10. Houston Lamar

My cousin plays for Pearland High School. His name is Corbin Smith. As you can see his team is ranked #2 in Texas in the region. The team is also undefeated.

I am just so proud of him. He plays the whole game. He hustles. He gets interceptions. He runs fast as hell. And he is cute while doing it. HOLLA!

Please, let us all say a prayer and a wish for him to make it to state!!

A New Sleep...if that makes sense

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!

I slept in Tia's bed.
Best sleep I have had in a minute.
It's so dark in there, the sunshine can't get thru.
I had good dreams.
Yes, I did mean "dreams" to be plural.
Of course I got 3 calls in the morning from the "mother who is no longer herself."
Of course she tried everything in the book.
And still I don't want to spend Thanksgiving with her.
I just need a break from her, and she needs a break from me!
Of course I will miss my kidnapping attempts on the cornbread muffins fresh out the oven.
Of course I will miss my aunt telling me off about how I am stealing the cornbread muffins.
I LOVE CORNBREAD MUFFINS. HELL, I JUST LOVE BREAD.

Good note: Dule might be coming to Houston.........oh my goodness!

Good note: My friends have really been good to me lately.

Bad note: I need a perm so bad, it's crazy. I just don't feel like doing it myself. I might breakdown and pay someone else to do it. I mean I have Pringles...wavy/nappy hair.

Good note: Tia is feeling better. Had her appendix removed, but man did they give her some good medicine. I am not going to lie to yall. I had one, and maybe that was the goodness to the sleep. lol. Who cares, I slept thru the night and woke up feeling like I hadn't just had the fight of my life. But if yall have some crazy stomach pains, or side pains make sure you go get it checked out immediately. Cuz Tia was fortunate enough to get it taken care of before it burst, oooo wee!

Question I need an answer to:

What happened to all of the Long John Silvers?

New Friend Moment: Little Spitfire, real name: AZ, is Tia's good friend. I have been getting to know her and she is cool. At first I didn't think our personalities would mesh, but they did :). She is crazy as hell but has the biggest heart. She believes in love. She can dance her ass off. Once won a "My Dougie" contest. Loves her!

Thanksgiving....what happened?

I used to get excited about this holiday.

I could care less this year.

Well really I didn't care last year. I was in New Orleans.

This year, I am in Houston, minding my own business.....but who is the 1 person who won't give me peace....my mother!
I mean, my homegirl has been the hospital for some days, and I have been with her. Of course my mother had a problem with that. Not that I was trying to be a good friend, or the fact I fucked up my back in that chair, but that I wasn't at home for her to take her frustrations out on. Tear my life.
So I told her days ago I was not, and refused to go to the country to my grandma's house. I just don't have the mind to be around family. I don't feel like hearing about why we don't have this certain dish cuz my aunt wrist hurts too much to cook everything....but she won't give up no recipes or give warning, BOO!
Of course she attempts to charge me up today.....where are you? you doing drugs? you at a drug house? when are you coming home? you aren't going to grandma's?.....and on and on.....
I am tired of her paranoia. I told her I have been at the hospital and somehow it has turned into me hanging out at a drug house. HOw does it go left to right?

So I am spending it with Tia, my poor friend who just had her appendix taken out. I am spending it with her family who is laid back and treats me like family. I don't feel the need to fake a smile. I can be myself and eat and not be depressed.

And what happened to the business of Thanksgiving? Traveling is down. Decorations are non-existent, I only see Christmas stuff that was put out right after Halloween....hmmmmm.....suspicious...

reality

It's been hard to blog lately.

It's been hard to publish what has already been typed.

To sum it up, it is hell living with my mother. Her mood swings, her paranoia, her memory loss.....it's depressing. I never thought I would see her like this. I honestly can't handle it. I have reached to family and friends but the adults tell me to hold on, support her, she's yo momma, help her, we are talking about, la di da di da. Not helping!

ex. I can't even use nail polish remover because she thinks I am sniffing it. The smell is too strong for her. Therefore there is no way I could be using it with nail polish, I must be getting high. Tear my life. If anything she is making me miss...well I am not going to go there.

Found a job. Got excited. Then wasn't given all the proper information. Missed the training school. Tear my lfie. So no job. But started babysitting so that's money, it's cash, it's nice, the kids are good, back to waking up early in the morning. YEA!

Let's talk about crazy friends. I thought the older I got some petty shit would disappear. Boy was I wrong. But I am learning and losing and winning along the way. It's getting easier letting people go. I no longer have the will or need to try to keeep them in my life or whatever. It's like bye bye. I'm tired of getting my feelings hurt.

Reading has become my passion once again and taking all of my money. But it eases my mind, make me happier.

I have been thinking about my dad lately. Random in my eyes.

I am truly looking for understanding, for direction. I want to make my own solid foundation. Sometimes I feel a part of me is missing, and I don't know what part or why. I am interested in moving. THinking about NEw Orleans because of all the new business coming their way. Like the Trump TOwers. Hmm.......

The Winter Boo

What is a winter boo?

• Needs to have a decent amount of body fat, muscles and soft muscles, just a teddy bear like feel
• doesn't really feel the need to talk all the time, only when I need him to or he's talking about what we are going to eat
• smells good, I mean close distance (I will smell good as well, wearing Euphoria right now, oooo weeeee)
• shaves (of course me to)
• deep voice to put me to sleep or remind me of romance novels
• available on the coldest and darkest of nights
• emotionally stable
• somewhat cute, gots to look in front of the fire and that is natural light
• Takes direction, open to new things....only in the subject of what kind of food we will be eating and the movie to watch
• no ashiness
• local
• Understand he is a winter boo, not a booty call

It's getting cold out there. And teddy bears are only so big and so just not human. So a winter boo makes everything better. Conversation, fulfillment, enjoyment for both parties.

I'm on the prowl......................

Does he think I am stupid?

This man has the nerve to walk around calmly. Like I don't see him texting back and forth...back and forth. That damn noise (duh duh duh) has been reocurring for about an hour. I guess he thinks putting the phone on vibrate equals silence...not it does not!!!

Of course I am staring him down. Waiting for him to slip up and set that phone down. Oh, but today would be the day it stays in his pocket. I don't even want to go thru it; okay maybe take a peep; reall throw it against the wall.

What's going you ask?

What's really going is that I am in a state of disbelief. How can he think that I htink he's handling business or connecting with honest and true friends......

What's going to happen?

Well, I sent him a text. By the time he gets it I shall be walking away...turning the corner...not looking back at the foolishness. I'm not in the mood for a confrontation, or an explanation or nothing. If I am spending quality time, can you do the same. I could be at home trying to read the Twilight series or watching Law and Order.

BOOO BOOOO

So he texts back....come back. So now he calls. Ummm to late.

LOL